The concept of long term commitment always seemed so foreign to me. Whether it be because of my inability to hold interest in something for more than two seconds, or being a child of divorce, I truly believed I would never be interested in something long term with somebody. How are people with each other for decades? People change every minute of every day. I just never saw it working for me. It sounds cliché, but it took the right person. The right person who I never saw coming.
I still, and will always remember the first night we officially met and hung out. A stranger approached us while we were talking and complimented us on what an adorable couple we were. We laughed and thanked her but told her we were just friends. I remember where we were, what he was wearing, what I was wearing, and the way he looked at me when she said that, and I knew this, whatever it ended up being, was going to be good. And it was been. So so good. All of the ups, the very few downs, and everything in between has been more than I could have ever hoped for out of a relationship.
It's funny how every little thing I've done and every little choice I've made up until this day four years ago put him in front of me. Some of those choices were mistakes, but I thank God I every day I made them. If I never took a certain job or let a certain person break my heart or decided to go out a certain night, things might not be where there are now. And if guess I wouldn't have known what I was missing if I never had met him, but I think somewhere, deep down, I would have felt different. I would have known that something wasn't quite right in my life.
Building a life with him has just come so natural to me. I never thought twice about moving in with him, owning pets with him, buying furniture, all kinds of mundane, adult things that tie me to him long term, because I've been in this 100% from day one.
I love you, dude. These four years with you have simultaneously flown by too fast and felt like forever. You make me happy all the time and I look forward to everything with you. Especially if you'll please let me have more pets.
(Sorry for making anybody throw up on a Monday. Carry on.)